I'm bleeding

I'm bleeding. I woke up this morning to use the bathroom. It wasn't a comfortable experience, if you know what I mean. After I finished, I wiped the back and the front separately. I'm bleeding. No it is not spotting. It was all over the toilet paper. It is light pink/red, very wet.

I called my husband crying hysterically. He offered to ditch the plane in New Jersey or New York or where ever he was at. I just kept crying and saying I'm sorry. He talked me into getting dressed and getting out the door for my 8:00 am beta appointment.

At the clinic I started crying in the phlebotomist's chair. After the blood draw, she hugged me and put me in a room to see the nurse. It took about 15 mins. I am not sure what name I have given this nurse on this blog, I think she is IVF Nurse 3. But she was kind. I told her my story. I told her about all the faint positives and the bolder ones from yesterday afternoon. I described the blood from this morning. She told me bleeding is very common, something about placenta blood vessels bleeding. She told me that she wouldn't be worried even if I had told her that I had a pad full of blood. She told me that HPT rarely ever gave false positives--she had never seen one, only false negatives. She was shocked and pleased that I was seeing consistence faint positives as early as Sunday. She did say that the risk of miscarriage goes up to 30% if there is bleeding this early. She very calm, very reassuring. She said that I had to wait for the blood work to get back this afternoon. She said that anything 50 and above was going to be great. She said not to count myself out, yet.

I'm at work now. Many trips to the bathroom, a couple more spots on the pantyliner. No blood when I wipe. I am scared to death.