It is official. BFF is pregnant. Surprise, surprise two pink lines on a pregnancy test actually do exist.
She was kind and gentle about telling me. We went over the news from my retrieval. We were talking about possible twins for me. I said something about having my hands full. She replied that she would come help me out. I said something about how she would probably have her hands already full by that time. She took it from there and announced that she had received two pink lines on a pregnancy test this evening.
I really really am happy for her.
But I am selfishly concerned about myself. (How small of a person I feel.)
I said all the right words. (I think.) She acknowledged that she knew I was going through a lot and she was concerned for my feelings. I really appreciated that. We talked about her due date, which room she was going to use for a nursery, and whether she wanted a girl or boy.
I'm happy for her. I really really am. Please God let this work for me.
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A journey through infertility.
"My story is important not because it is mine, God knows, but because if I tell it anything like right, the chances are you will recognize that in many ways it is also yours. Maybe nothing is more important than that we keep track, you and I, of these stories of who we are and where we have come from and the people that we have met along the way because it is precisely through these stories, in all their particularity, as I have long believed and often said, that God makes himself known to each of us most powerfully and personally."
-Frederick Buechner
-Frederick Buechner
Our History:
June 01: Hubby and I got married.
June 04: Had emergency surgery to remove hole in small intestine. Diagnosed with Crohn's disease.
Sept 07: We stopped BCP and started TTC.
Sept 07-Jul 08: Off and on TTC.
Aug 08: Met with GP and had the "I think there is something wrong discussion." Referred to RE.
Sept 08: First visit with RE (Dr. Cupcake). Ultrasound showed that I was naturally producing an egg from each ovary. So much hope.
Sept 08: Hubby has SA. He is superman!
Oct 08: I have 1st HSG. Done at an outside diagnostic center. Uncomfortable and unclear. 1 tube blocked, the other "marginally functional" ????
Oct 08-Jan 09: Timed intercourse with monitering, Ferma and trigger shot. (I think 5 cycles.)
Jan 09: Met with RE (Dr. Cupcake) and IVF was recommended.
Feb 09: Went for 2nd opinion with different RE (Dr. Niceguy). Question was raised of removing the tubes before IVF.
Mar 09: Went back to 1st RE (Dr. Cupcake) and requested redo of HSG to answer question on whether tubes should be removed before IVF.
Mar 09: HSG redone by RE (Dr. Cupcake). Much more expensively but also much more clearly. The final answer, both tubes are blocked and neither needs to be removed before IVF.
May 09: Started and completed prerequisites for IVF.
May 23, 2009: First acupuncture appointment.
June 1, 2009: Cycle day 1 of IVF.
June 3, 2009: IVF cycle day 3, started birth control.
June 8, 2009: IVF cycle day 8, hubby and I, both started antiboditics.
June 12, 2009: IVF cycle day 12, last day of antiboitics for hubby and myself.
June 17, 2009: IVF cycle day 17, first Lupron injection.
June 23, 2009: IVF cycle day 23, last day of birth control.
June 25, 2009: IVF cycle day 25, suppression check. E2 level 14. Lining 5.1.
June 26, 2009: IVF cycle day 26, started a very light period.
June 27, 2009: IVF cycle day 27, begin FSH, Bravelle, injections and decreased Lupron doseage.
June 29, 2009: IVF cycle day 29, ended a very light period.
July 1, 2009: IVF cycle day 31, (day 5 of stimulation) follicle check. 16 Follicles. E2 level 364.
July 3, 2009: IVF cycle day 33, (day 7 of stimulation) follicle check. 16 Follicles. E2 level 1361.
July 6, 2009: IVF cycle day 36, (day 10 of stimulation) follicle check. 19 Follicles. E2 level 4826.
July 7, 2009: IVF cycle day 37, E2 level 6698, mild, grade 1 Ovarian Hyperstimulation.
July 8, 2009: IVF cycle day 38, retrieved 16 eggs. Started Medrol and Tetracycline. First progesterone in oil injection.
July 9, 2009: IVF cycle day 39, 15 eggs matured. 10 matured.
July 11, 2009: IVF cycle day 41, last day of Medrol.
July 12, 2009: IVF cycle day 42, last day of Tetracycline.
July 13, 2009: IVF cycle day 43, learned that 11 actually fertilized, but only 10 survived. Transfered 2.
July 14, 2009: IVF cycle day 44, 3 embryos frozen.
July 15, 2009: IVF cycle day 45, progesterone level check 52.8.
June 04: Had emergency surgery to remove hole in small intestine. Diagnosed with Crohn's disease.
Sept 07: We stopped BCP and started TTC.
Sept 07-Jul 08: Off and on TTC.
Aug 08: Met with GP and had the "I think there is something wrong discussion." Referred to RE.
Sept 08: First visit with RE (Dr. Cupcake). Ultrasound showed that I was naturally producing an egg from each ovary. So much hope.
Sept 08: Hubby has SA. He is superman!
Oct 08: I have 1st HSG. Done at an outside diagnostic center. Uncomfortable and unclear. 1 tube blocked, the other "marginally functional" ????
Oct 08-Jan 09: Timed intercourse with monitering, Ferma and trigger shot. (I think 5 cycles.)
Jan 09: Met with RE (Dr. Cupcake) and IVF was recommended.
Feb 09: Went for 2nd opinion with different RE (Dr. Niceguy). Question was raised of removing the tubes before IVF.
Mar 09: Went back to 1st RE (Dr. Cupcake) and requested redo of HSG to answer question on whether tubes should be removed before IVF.
Mar 09: HSG redone by RE (Dr. Cupcake). Much more expensively but also much more clearly. The final answer, both tubes are blocked and neither needs to be removed before IVF.
May 09: Started and completed prerequisites for IVF.
May 23, 2009: First acupuncture appointment.
June 1, 2009: Cycle day 1 of IVF.
June 3, 2009: IVF cycle day 3, started birth control.
June 8, 2009: IVF cycle day 8, hubby and I, both started antiboditics.
June 12, 2009: IVF cycle day 12, last day of antiboitics for hubby and myself.
June 17, 2009: IVF cycle day 17, first Lupron injection.
June 23, 2009: IVF cycle day 23, last day of birth control.
June 25, 2009: IVF cycle day 25, suppression check. E2 level 14. Lining 5.1.
June 26, 2009: IVF cycle day 26, started a very light period.
June 27, 2009: IVF cycle day 27, begin FSH, Bravelle, injections and decreased Lupron doseage.
June 29, 2009: IVF cycle day 29, ended a very light period.
July 1, 2009: IVF cycle day 31, (day 5 of stimulation) follicle check. 16 Follicles. E2 level 364.
July 3, 2009: IVF cycle day 33, (day 7 of stimulation) follicle check. 16 Follicles. E2 level 1361.
July 6, 2009: IVF cycle day 36, (day 10 of stimulation) follicle check. 19 Follicles. E2 level 4826.
July 7, 2009: IVF cycle day 37, E2 level 6698, mild, grade 1 Ovarian Hyperstimulation.
July 8, 2009: IVF cycle day 38, retrieved 16 eggs. Started Medrol and Tetracycline. First progesterone in oil injection.
July 9, 2009: IVF cycle day 39, 15 eggs matured. 10 matured.
July 11, 2009: IVF cycle day 41, last day of Medrol.
July 12, 2009: IVF cycle day 42, last day of Tetracycline.
July 13, 2009: IVF cycle day 43, learned that 11 actually fertilized, but only 10 survived. Transfered 2.
July 14, 2009: IVF cycle day 44, 3 embryos frozen.
July 15, 2009: IVF cycle day 45, progesterone level check 52.8.
4 comments:
YOU are not small for feeling that way. I always feel that way.
Good luck.
You are an incredible friend to your BFF and your feelings are more than valid. I'm praying that you get your BFP soon too!
Definitely not alone - I'd feel the same way. I'm hoping this works for you!!
Just focus on the fact that you two will be PG together, power of positive thinking!!!
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